Productivity

Everyone has his or her own haven — to give meaning to our temporary lives. Based on the hours I spend every day, I would say I give priority to my careers now. Others came second.

Being single and non-committal to any relationship beyond my immediate family allows me to do so. My self-proclaimed introversion, on the other hand, after long day of dealing and interaction with people at my job, forces me to recharge and find recluse in the comfort (and darkness) of my room. Shutting myself in and let screens do the thinking for me.

Was I being productive? I thought I was productive enough, and I need the rest.

Now I am not so sure myself. Within my circle — the ones I bonded during university years — we theorized that during our student years, we weren’t getting enough dose of “entertainment” due to commitment we made. That is tricky. If I accept that premise, then what I perceive as the most productive years of 28-year of my life, is the cause of my current non-productivity?

It took a harder introspection to find what is my accepted definition of productivity. To me a productive life is one that manages to achieve a balance of professional, intellectual, emotional and spiritual dimension of my life. So productivity is not exactly the act of doing, but rather the act of managing and fulfilling expectation.